Not as much time has passed as I had originally thought.
But there were so many times over the past couple weeks where I wanted to get on to write but just couldn't bring myself to do so.
In 19 days I will be in the hospital giving birth to a baby. Wish I could let you know if it's a boy or girl but we won't know until baby is delivered.
So among all of the nesting, resting, excitement and anticipation, insecurities also creep in...and I have some choices to make. And you know what I've realized; I am not one that enjoys making decisions. It's the people pleaser in me and yet I think it can also be perceived as an abdication of responsibility.
And I have a lot to be responsible for.
What I do know is that I cannot endure another relationship with a crazy ex...so if circumstances end up where that is even a remote possibility, I hate to say it, but I'm over and out. At least that's how I'm feeling for now...
Hmm. Okay. Base that future decision on his response pattern, not her behavior.
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