Many things

So, I had promised myself that I would be much better about keeping up this particular blog.
In true to life fashion there has been several things that have prevented me from writing.

One it processing information and having to move around doctor dates as James and I hope for the best in the development of our baby.
Some tests came back on a quad screen that flagged a warning for Down Syndrome as well as Trisomny  18. 
Being pregnant and already having a full term still born I of course had a mini breakdown.

Thank goodness for female friends who had a listening ear, encouragement and advice to help walk me away from the emotional ledge I was teetering on.  I love James but he wasn't helpful; at all.

After  meeting with the Obgyn as well as discussing possible scenarios I have peace for no matter what may happen.

The most exciting part is that there is new diagnostic testing that will provide a conclusive yes or no with out having to have the usual amniocentesis or the biopsy of the placenta. There is now a blood test that they do, so no harm to baby or momma, and if you need a yes or no answer, this is the way to do it!

In other news with Memorial Day Weekend approaching James, the kids and I will be at a bbq over at my parents house where they surprisingly invited my brother and his boyfriend (in the words of Nate, might as well deal with all the awkwardness at once). We have a bet on which one of our boyfriends will feel most scrutinized, bahahahaha!!!! But I'm also very proud of my parents for moving forward through their own insecurities and constructs of their religious beliefs to have all of us in their home.

Too bad I can't drink...