May Day Reflections

I have one very special girlfriend that I consider a lover.
Not in the sexual, seductive way; though she has those qualities.
But something deeper than the Anne of Green Gables, "bosom friend" kind of way.

It has been over five years since our friendship began the bonding process.
She was one of the few people that met me in the midst of such sorrow and despair that I only vaguely remember her presence.

She was a woman who bravely walked into my pain of delivering my still born daughter. I do not remember words that were exchanged but just her presence.
I do not know if she'll ever realize the gift of those moments.

The amazing thing is she has done this for others, being made available in their time of need.

Over the years we shared, grew, laughed, cried and vented through many things. And through it all she never judged, but would still give opinions, she never withdrew but gently guided, and she always loved me.

And so I hope you get some sense of the depth of feeling and loyalty I have towards my friend.

This past weekend my boyfriend (my lover, lover) and I went camping and explored a wilderness trail. It was fantastic! And while we were walking I kept thinking of my female friend knowing she would have relished this adventure.
We started off through a field that we affectionately labeled "Caterpillar Hill".
James and I had to walk lightly on the path as we encountered at least a hundred caterpillars soaking in the sun on the tall grassy stalks.
Than down we went into the woods, on a foot trail that revealed the creek with the beautiful waterfall.
As we began the trek back up to our campsite, dusk had come and the salamanders slithered all over the warm, muddy trail before the night came with its cooling presence.

In those moments I was completely at peace, happy, full of joy.

This weekend my friend and I will explore another trail.
This time I look forward to the celebration of summer approaching and reflecting on the blessings of being connected to such a dear one.

This May Day has birthed many things, new relationships, a pregnancy and revealed true friendships. I am truly a fortunate woman.